There is Allah's intelligent design behind my idiocy

I love to destroy and then rebuild my identity time to time. Now I identify myself as a working class househusband. More as a garbage collector than a writer. Many well-educated men see such an identity almost as a curse but I am happy to take it. It broadens my consciousness.

I am rather timid but I am quite a daredevil at the same time. So I often change things radically without thinking much. Such a character is evey bosses' or every Japanese's nightmare and it is far from risk-free. I often feel I am a total idiot. I often depress myself so much that the world would be a better place if I ceased to exist.

But I am like this because Allah or Dharma or Whoever/whatever designed me like this. So I believe that blasphemy is refusal of accepting myself as it is.

Insha'Allah! I believe I am heading in the right direction. I am okay.