Sorry, Jesus!

Sorry, Jesus!
I still love you
I still respect you but
You are no longer
The only one

I cannot keep
Other wise and loving ones
Out of my heart any longer
Because it only makes me
Feel I am not true to myself

Sorry, Yahweh!
I can no longer love you
Curse me if you want
But it only proves
You are not pure love

Bye-bye, Jesus!
Bye-bye, Yahweh!

You are not my Lords any more.
This is my last prayer.

Amen!

-End of Transmission-

There is Allah's intelligent design behind my idiocy

I love to destroy and then rebuild my identity time to time. Now I identify myself as a working class househusband. More as a garbage collector than a writer. Many well-educated men see such an identity almost as a curse but I am happy to take it. It broadens my consciousness.

I am rather timid but I am quite a daredevil at the same time. So I often change things radically without thinking much. Such a character is evey bosses' or every Japanese's nightmare and it is far from risk-free. I often feel I am a total idiot. I often depress myself so much that the world would be a better place if I ceased to exist.

But I am like this because Allah or Dharma or Whoever/whatever designed me like this. So I believe that blasphemy is refusal of accepting myself as it is.

Insha'Allah! I believe I am heading in the right direction. I am okay.

Good Needs Evil

God is supposed to be all good. But is it possible for good to exist without any bad? We cannot live without oxygen so it should be good. Yet, we are rarely aware of preciousness of the life-sustaining gas because it is abundant everywhere on the Earth. We would only be aware of how good oxygen is unless we face a danger of suffocation, which is bad. Good can only be good when there is something to compare to.

So an absolutely good God needs someone or something absolutely bad. Something huge always accompanies a huge shadow. This can explain why Satan is extremely powerful for the Christian or Muslim fundamentalists. Their God is so powerful that He sounds like a muscular commando. (Well, it may be a correct view of Yahweh because He is Yahweh Sabaoth, the Lord of Armies.) A God that powerfully good may not be able to exist without the backing of something excessively evil and powerful - the great Satan as the great God's enourmous shadow.

It is nothing new. It is what Carl G. Jung, the famous Swiss psychologist said. And the theory of "shadow" is a very important part of Jungian psychology. But it took me almost a decade until I realised that the mystery of my neurosis could be solved by this theory.

A Prayer for Judas Iscariot

Our Father who art in the Heaven, 

Please trun Your face and smile to Judas Iscariot!

He was a simple man who wanted to see

His superhero perform a miracle on the Cross

So great that everyone would believe in Him

And people talk about it until the end of time.

Our Father who art in the Heaven,

Please have a mercy on Judas Iscariot!

He was simply too ardent a fan of Jesus to foresee

 That his superhero would really die on the Cross.

So he thought, with all His superpower

The Cross would never hurt Jesus.

He was wrong.

But our Father who art in the Heaven,

Please remember whose plan it was

That Judas had to betray Jesus!

Isn't it Yours?

And didn't you create Judas just as

A disposable tool in that cruel plan?

Jesus suffered and died.

But so did Judas.

Our Father who art in the Heaven,

To Your feet pelase raise Judas Iscariot!

He was a simple man who wanted to see

His superhero perform a miracle on the Cross

So great that everyone would believe in Him

And people talk about it until the end of time.

I believe I would have felt the same way

If I had lived in that time.

Because I am only a simple man.

In Jesus' name, please hear my prayer!

Amen!

Long Sleek Haired... What Then?

It always surprises me. Time to time, the number of beautiful or cute women suddenly skyrockets around me. And most of them are my type - usually short-haired and somewhat boyish... Not everyone's favourite. Well, I am a married man and I don't expect any intimate relation with any of them. But it is indeed a pleasant scene.

That used to make me wonder a lot.

Now I know the reason. A swarm of cuties only appear in front of me when I am happy - when my conscious mind is getting along with my unconscious one. And I know that my unconscious mind is represented by a mischievous young woman (quite much like Midori in Norwegian Woodby Haruki Murakami) that appears in my dream. She is what Carl G. Jung calls anima and I call her "Luna".

All those cuties I see time to time are projection of my happy peaceful mind. Luna appears everywhere and tells me "Everything is fine."

And recently I feel that a different kind of content of my unconscious mind has been projected to the "outside" world. I find so many heads with sleek, silky long hair... I feel very weird. Those heads usually do not attract my attention because I am almost fetishistic to women's short hair. And those heads with beautiful hair are of men's... These men look like Asian rock stars... It makes me feel even more weird.

What, then, does my unconscious mind want to tell me by showing all those long-haired men? It might be related to the minor crisis I was in until a few days ago... Well, the answer will be unfolded gradually and naturally if I keep a good connection with my unconscious mind...

Archbigot Sobrinho

This bigot (Jose Cardoso Sobrinho, the archbishop of Olinda and Recife, Brazil) says that "The law of God is above any human law." He excommunicated a local woman because abortion had been performed for her 9-year-old girl suspected to have been raped by her stepfather.

For more, read Reuters' "Brazil attacks church opposition to girl's abortion"

Those bigots really makes me feel like becoming a friend of Mephistopheles instead of God.... I want to tell them "Please stop hurting people in the name of fake God!!!!!!!!!"

I feel very sad.  I thought God is love but the God propagated by the most influential church seems not...

ราชันีแห่งแมวแห่งเอเขีย - The Cat Queen of Asia

ผมตอนนี้ประกาศว่า ดา เอ็นโดรฟินเป็น"ราชันีแห่งแมวแห่งเอเขีย" (The Cat Queen of Asia)!

ชาวจีนเรียกElvis Presleyว่า "ม๊าวหวาง" คือ "กษัตริย์แมว" เพราะว่า ชาวภาคใต้เคยเรียกเขาว่า Hillbily Cat (แมวฮิลลบิลี) และเขาเป็น"กษัตริย์รอกแอนด์โรล"

ผมคิดว่า ดาเป็นนักร้องร็อกดีที่สุดในเอเชีย เพราะนั่น ผมเรียกเธอว่า "ราชันีแห่งแมวแห่งเอเขีย"

แต่ผมไม่รู้ว่าดาชอบแมวหรือเปล่า...หวังว่าดาชอบแมวและรับได้ตำแหน่ง"ราชันีแห่งแมว"...

"ด้วยรัก ความตาย และหัวใจสลาย" กับ ดา เอ็นโดฟิน

Tran Anh Hung ผู้กำกับชาวฝรั่งเศส(ที่เกิดที่ประเทศเวียดนาม)จะเปลียนนวนิยาย"ด้วยรัก ความตาย และหัวใจสลาย"(Norwegian Wood)โดย ฮารูกิ มูราคามิ นักเขียนนวนิยายญี่ปุ่นที่มีชื่อเสียง เป็นหนัง

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